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[Mar. 24th, 2007|11:35 pm] |
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Tomorrow, March 25th, will be the day that commemorates one year of being self-injury free. I haven't been this proud of myself in a while.... |
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| I just got a hair cut too... |
[Mar. 3rd, 2007|03:11 pm] |
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Trial 1--->
Opening Credits: International noise conspiracy - up for sale
Waking Up: Soviettes - #1 is number two
First Day at High School: Jill Scott - I'm not afraid
Falling In Love: Distillers - Love is paranoid
Breaking Up: Rufus wainwright - hallelujah
Prom: Jimi Hendrix - purple haze
Life: andre 3000 - my favorite things
Mental Breakdown: Nofx - shut up already
Driving: Gladys knight - If I was your woman
Flashback: The roots - break you off
Getting Back Together: Gregory and the hawk - boats and birds
Wedding: Mary J blige - all that I can say
Birth of Child: Starfield - cry in my heart
Final Battle: Hot hot heat - le le low
Death Scene: Billie holiday - I'll be seeing you
Funeral Song: Bob marley - get up stand up
End Credits: The used - let it bleed
Trial 2--->
Opening Credits: Hawthorne Heights - wake up call
Waking Up: Underoath - Writing on the walls
First Day at High School: Silverstein - My heroine
Falling In Love: Relient K - I so hate consequences
Breaking Up: Nofx - Champs elysees
Prom: Heart - Baracuda
Life: Distillers - Coral fang
Mental Breakdown: MCR - I'm not okay
Driving: Tamia - Officially missing you remix
Flashback: He is Legend - Canonball hands
Getting Back Together: Jars of clay - come thou fount
Wedding: Dropkick murphys - The outcast
Birth of Child: Stevie wonder - isn't she lovely
Final Battle: Lizz Wright - silence
Death Scene: Green day - american idiot
Funeral Song: alexisonfire - no transitory
End Credits: Floetry - say yes |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2007|12:35 am] |
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| | anberlin - godspeed | ] |
I just watched the movie "Babel". AMAZING! I think its one of my top 5 now. Check out genesis 11 for what babel is in the bible... |
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| Imagery... |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|10:25 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | Underoath - In regards to myself | ] |
I was thinking a lot last night and today and I've come to a few conclusions. I've been having a few problems with relating to God. A big thing for me is understanding stuff, which sucks cause thats IMPOSSIBLE with God. Too much, too big, too awesome... and I get that. God is a huge part of my life, I pray, I talk to him, I'm starting to read my bible, etc. I need to get over the fact that God is not a "thing" or a tangible. My whole life, whenever I thought of God I got this picture of this huge guy like zeus with the lightning bolt and white hair or the hollywood Jesus thing (white, long brown hair and beard...) I hate that. I don't wanna worship some big figure head that makes me think of charlton heston. I'm starting to get over it, but its really hard. I have to realize that God is everything, everything around me, everything I see, everything I don't see. I have no doubt that God is there, I can't deny it, I've felt him and seen him work..... So why does this all feel weird now? When I'm by myself praying, it's cool, I'm basically fine and I can relate. But when I get in a group it feels like everything changes, I don't know why. I'll keep praying about it.
I like how I can upload pictures on this blog now so I'm gonna keep doing that. Here's me and Meredith in Hawaii. I miss her...
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[Feb. 25th, 2007|10:50 pm] |
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| | coldplay - swallowed by the sea | ] |
I think God's speaking to me today. I've been writing a bunch (just the kinda thing where you just keep writing whatever comes to mind without stopping). Today's the 11th month free of self-injury for me, I just realized that while sitting in church. It's weird cause I didn't really know who to tell or remind. I guess this blog is the first thing I've mentioned it on. Most of the youth were on a snowboard trip today (most of my friends, so I couldn't tell them) and I went out for lunch today with 2 other friends, one of which who knows and the other I've refrained from telling for now. I'll probably share my testimony in march at youth or something. Anyway, today was a pretty good day, but just in the past hour or so, I've been feeling kind of weird. Basically getting impulses for various things, dwelling on them and stopping myself, asking myself what's wrong with me. God, what I am I doing? I've lost focus. Have I become too busy for you? What a dumb question. He is the basis of my life. Why should I be putting him on hold? I've also lost confidence in my self appearance. My skin's a big issue. But why should I care? I suppose I'm only human. I know I'm tired and I know I have a lot of things coming up, but I don't want to sleep tonight.
On a lighter note, my basketball team won fraser valleys. When we got the trophy I held onto it the whole time and eventually brought it home. (haha) We'll be going to provincials in 2 weeks along with the boys (they came 3rd). We'll be going up to kamloops on a bus with them, which will be a gong show...
Here's me cutting a piece of the net down...
I think I just need to relax a little, and let God take over... |
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| hola amigos... |
[Feb. 18th, 2007|10:33 pm] |
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| | Dustin Kensrue - I knew you before | ] |
I kinda miss updating this thing. Sooo that's what I'm gonna do. I just bought the new Underoath cd (Define the great line) and I love it! Its so amazing. I don't know what it is about their music but I feel so alive when I listen to it and I can totally worship too. If you aren't really into screamo/hardcore music, check out their lyrics on the web anyways cause they'll hit you hard. Underoath is coming to Vancouver next month on the 18th. Pretty sure, I wanna go. They're way up there with Thrice on my list now. I heard an old Thrice song in west 49 today and my ears perked. It made me happy at the time. "see you in the shallows" it was called. Anyway, I bought a thicker winter jacket today cause I'm going to saskatchewan next year.
Frasier Valley playoffs are this week. Our basketball team is going in as number one, so that's pretty sweet. I think we're also 2nd in the province, which is also pretty exciting. I think I'm enjoying basketball now. Maybe because I know now that it's ending soon....
Ask me questions.. I'm bored these days... |
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[Feb. 5th, 2007|10:11 pm] |
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| | The Almost - Southern weather | ] |
Check out this band ----> http://www.purevolume.com/blackrain
All of the comments are stuff like "you guys are amazing" or "I love your sound!". THIS BAND BLOWS! Are these people deaf or are they blinded by the physical beauty of the singer? Tell me what you think.... |
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| My future as I know it. |
[Jan. 14th, 2007|10:03 pm] |
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| | Regina Spektor - Us | ] |
I'm graduating from high school this year. It's not really the actual graduating part I'm anxious/excited about right now though, it's planning what I'm going to do next year and years to come. I've decided to go to Briercrest college in Caronport, SK. (assuming I'm going to get in) I'm planning to do a two year music program (Associate in music). I've been trying to arrange this for a few months now, but just tonight did I realize what I'm really in for. I didn't realize that it's a "bubble" kind of atmosphere. No piercings, no tattoos, no social dancing, gotta go to chapel/church all the time, etc. I feel that God's been wanting me to go there for some time, but now it's a little more taxing on my mind knowing that this experience is going to be a little out of my kinda norm. I just hope that the music I play/learn/make isn't too conservative christian. I think you know what I mean...
On that note, I'm going to see Rise against, anti-flag, moneen and billy talent on Friday!!!!
I'm excited.
Fin. |
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| reflectionnnnnnn |
[Jan. 9th, 2007|10:20 pm] |
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| | Clap your hands and say yeah - Tidal wave | ] |
I Confess that in 2006 I... (the x's)
stayed single the whole year.
dated the same person the whole year.
got your first REAL kiss (x)
kissed someone new (x)
made-out for the first time (x)
made-out in/on a car
kissed in the snow
kissed in the rain
fell in love/been in love.? (x)
had your heart broken? (x)
broke someone else's heart
had a stalker
had a good relationship with someone (x)
questioned something you were sure about yourself (x)
came out of the closet
gotten married
had a divorce
had a gay marriage
kissed someone of the same sex
dated someone you'll never forget
done something you've regretted
lost someone you truely love *knock on wood*
lost faith in love
kissed under mistletoe
WORK/SCHOOL
got a job
got a promotion
got a pay raise
changed jobs
lost your job
quit your job
dated a co-worker
dated your boss
dated your boss' daughter/son
got fired from your job
got straight A's
met one teacher you really like (x)
met one teacher you really hated
found the subject you love
failed a class (x)
got into a fight with a classmate
did something you were proud of (x)
discovered a new talent (x)
gave the teachers a reason to teach
proved yourself an idiot
embarassed yourself in front of the class (x)
fell in love with a teacher.
got a lead in the school play
made a team (x)
were involved in something you'll never forget (x)
got sent to the office
OTHER
painted a picture/wrote a poem (x)
ran a mile (x)
listened to music you couldn't stand (x)
double-dipped (x)
skinny-dipped
went to a sleepover (x)
went to camp (x)
threw a surprise party
laughed until you cried
flirted shamelessly (x)
visited a foreign country (x)
visited a different province. (x)
cooked a disasterous meal
lost something important to you (x)
got a gift you adore
realized something new about yourself (x)
tried to gain weight
dyed your hair (x)(x)(x)
came close to losing your life
someone close to you died *knock on wood*
went to a party (x)
drank alcohol (x)
drank alcohol underage (x)
did drug(s)
got drunk
got arrested
saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
saw a band/artist live (x)
saw someone famous in person (x)
did something you want to tell everyone (x) |
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| Another day, another lame rhyme... |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|03:58 pm] |
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| | Gregory and the hawk - Isabelle | ] |
Last night, it hit me how much is going on in my life right now, but the strange thing is, I've dealt with this kinda stuff before (almost with ease). I have a mass load with biology/math/school etc. because the semester is ending. I'm also heading into inferno mode with basketball (middle of the season), and it'll get insane pretty quick. It's not like I've never had a basketball crazy basketball season or a large school pile up, but its just getting to me now. Maybe because it's grade 12, I couldn't tell ya.
Official top 5 bands:
1.Thrice
2.Refused
3.Pedro the lion
4.Rise Against
5.Sigur ros |
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| NEW? |
[Dec. 15th, 2006|11:51 pm] |
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Its been forever since I've posted any poetry on my site, so there's 3 new ones on there. SO CHECK IT OUT! |
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| Praying... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|10:04 pm] |
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| | Rise Against - Injection | ] |
Although I sing in public, on stage all the time, I'm not always a huge fan of praying in front of people. We actually have a prayer night once a month for our church, where anyone who wants to come can gather at our church office to pray about issues in the church, overseas, stuff going on in our lives or whatever. I've been a few times, not recently though. I got kinda turned off cause it seemed like half the people were putting on a show when they were praying. So while I'm there, I keep thinking if they actually pray like this when they're all by themselves. Do they? I have no idea. I just know that after the show, I feel kinda stupid talking to God just like I talk to other people. I just think that since God should be my best friend, I shouldn't have to say a lot of fancy words and whatnot to have a conversation with him. I was reading the bible a little bit earlier when I came across Matthew-6:5-6.....
"5 And when you come before God, don't turn that into a theatrical production either. All these people making a regular show out of their prayers, hoping for stardom! Do you think God sits in a box seat?
6 Here's what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won't be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift from you to God, and you will begin to sense his grace."
That made me feel a little easier when it came to praying. Maybe I'll come to the next prayer meeting anyways...
Oh and I just dyed my hair purple. |
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| Has it been this long?? |
[Nov. 18th, 2006|10:52 pm] |
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| | Refused - Protest song '68 | ] |
I noticed that it's been a while since I've posted. I guess for a while I didn't really know what I would say. I'm still not too sure. To fill the readers in, my sister is in Germany for bible school, I just cut my hair (short, almost pixie), basketball season's about to start and I'm running on about 3 hours of sleep (in the last 48 hours). During my leave of absence, I joined the senior girls volleyball team. I've never played on a volleyball team, but I learned some stuff and I did alright. Riding in the car, with my teammates, to the games, I realized that I could only relate to 2 of them (barely). I'm not too big on the gossip stuff, the lusty relationship stuff or the drinking/partying stuff. Nonetheless, it was an experience.
Life's been kinda weird without Meredith around. For one, there are a lot more home alone moments. Most of the time when at home, I kinda want to be alone anyways cause she's not around. From what she's been telling me, she's having a great time over there, so I'm glad she's learning stuff. Mer's gonna come home for christmas and come to hawaii with me, which is pretty awesome.
I'll probably post something more meaningful sometime this week. This is more of just an update. I've been recording some new stuff, so check out my site: www.purevolume.com/jillgreenshields |
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| laaaate |
[Sep. 1st, 2006|01:50 am] |
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| | Bedroom a la Jill. | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | indie/acoustic-ish | ] |
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| | Mazzy Star - Fade into you | ] |
It's pretty much 2am. Why am I still awake? Maybe it's that cup of tea, but I drank that at 11. I've been playing the guitar mostly, stopped at 1 though. I've been listening to Pedro the Lion for the past hour. Another band I'm obsessed with. Amazing stuff, really. I'm hooked on "Bad things to such good people". Too bad they broke up, David Bazan is a genius.
My fingers are small and I can't do a B chord and F is hard. I really wanna try an electric, just for fun. I love music. Geez, what the heck would I do without it...
I would probably have nothing to blog about. ha.ha.ha.
If you're bored with music, gimme a shout. I got tons of crazy bands in my repertoire.
I walked to Inform fitness today (yes from my house, I didn't walk back). On the way I saw the most adorable little girl. She was about 3 feet tall, long bright blond hair and kept calling wait up, wait up to her siblings. I almost started to cry. WHY? I have no idea. Maybe I miss the inosense of being a child, maybe I miss my long hair or maybe I saw some of myself in that little kid.
At late hours, I probably get a little too emotional, so I'm gonna do everyone a favor and hit the sack... |
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| COULD IT BE??? |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
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| | Dustin Kensrue - folk song | ] |
Dustin Kensrue (lead singer of THRICE and pretty much my role model) is doing a solo acoustic show in Seattle. I'm definately gonna cry if I can't go. Anyone wanna drive me? :-D |
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| 43! |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|05:26 pm] |
Still doin alright with the guitar thing, I really think I need to get an acoustic soon. I try greg's out and I love it.
Right now I'm addicted to this website: www.43things.com
Check it out for yourself, it's really cool... |
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| hola |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|08:35 pm] |
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| | Anti-flag - The Press Corpse | ] |
Just came back from Creation fest last sunday and it was AMAZING. I was so inspired by all of the artists that..... wait for it..... I'm teaching myself how to play the guitar! My fingers kill. Okay, well I'm not that great YET, but with 11 years of piano and music under my belt, I'm sure I'll learn fast. I'm actually writing a song right now. (Not with the guitar, but with the piano and such.) I'm not going to show anyone until I'm done. I am determined to become a musician! |
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| Nothing to prove. |
[Jul. 14th, 2006|03:01 pm] |
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| | Belle and Sebastian - If she wants me | ] |
Most of the time I don't like to pray in a big group. Sometimes, it's alright, but for the most part, they make me feel stupid. I have a personal relationship with God, he's the best friend I've got. I always feel as if I have to prove that to other people with my big words and whatnot. I talk to Jesus like I talk to my friends. I praise him and worship for he's better that my regular friends but he knows my heart, my desires, my intentions. I shouldn't have to prove to anyone else that he's my number one. I'm not here to condemn anyone else but it seems like sometimes the prayer that is said aloud, really isn't what's inside the heart. I'm sure i'll get over this, and start not to care what anyone else thinks of what I say aloud to Jesus, but for now it's just a little frustrating. |
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| 3:48 pm--> July 06th |
[Jul. 6th, 2006|11:04 pm] |
Wow do I ever take B.C.’s beauty for granted sometimes. We left Osoyoos today and now we’re on our way to cranbrook. I just ate about 20 cherries. I love the okanagan. I’m in the car right now (we don’t have the internet, I’m gonna post this when I’m at the hotel.) and we’re about 2 hours away from cranbrook. There’s like a billion trees and huge mountains all around. Kinda makes me wish I had a better camera. Oh well, I guess it’s not like it’s going anywhere for now.
The last couple of days, I haven’t been feeling so super, so going to a wedding is probably the best thing I could be doing. Hanging out with my cousins = one of my favorite past times. Plus I get to wear this awesome dress I bought and dance and all that great stuff.
I don’t think I’m a huge fan of long car trips. Maybe it gets better when you go with your friends. hehe.
I’ll post pictures when I get back. I might write a little more later... |
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| And so we go tomorrow. |
[Jul. 4th, 2006|10:33 pm] |
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| | Belle and Sebastian - Seeing other people | ] |
Heading off to Lethbridge tomorrow for my cousin's wedding. By the end of the day tomorrow, I'll be in Osoyoos, takin in the sun and a beautiful beach. Sweet? Yes. I spoke on Sunday for the youth service. It's kinda strange that I sing ALL the time, but I get sooooo nervous when I have to talk about something. I'll sure I'll get better with time.
Lately, I've been wondering what it would be like if I moved to a different city and a different school. I could start all over, make new friends, maybe even make an impact on some people. I almost want to do that, but I can't. It's just a strange thought, don't ask me about it cause I'll deny it.
Today, I went to my brother's lacrosse game. He fell on his hip and got hurt a little so he came off. I always say that he's such a complainer and wonder why he doesn't just suck it up. That's what I do. He eventually went on after a little bit, but then 10 seconds in there he fell on his hip again. He really was hurt this time. Nothing was cracked or anything, probably just a deep bruise. He never really wanted to go to the game anyways, and he knew that they would lose.... and they did. I guess I can't help but feel a little sorry for him. I'm also thinking that I probably grew up A LOT faster than he did.
I still think he should toughen up and get off that dumb computer.
1 hour, okay. 5-6 hours, TOO MUCH. I'm the closest thing he has to a big brother. (Meredith is a little too girly.) Maybe I can help somehow.... |
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